Yes these days, I have to admit that I have been so selfish. Whatever the reason I cannot bring myself to admit. Often, I have always sulked in self pity but in front of others, I show off an image that projects a good image. But deep down, I still have my pains, my hurts, and even my tears.

I find it hard to depend on God these days, but I want to depend. Why am I afraid to fully submit to His will? I want to give my total submission to Him, because I promised that He will be the Lord of my Life. I promised that I will live and give my all for Him and for Him alone. I want to give my all for Him, but why am I still afraid? O Lord, give me strength. I'm lost without You.