Well yeah, I have been kinda depressed lately. Explaining it is hard and getting these things out of my chest is hard as if the pain is unimaginable. Just thinking about it honestly is like a stab in the chest. I feel like crying but the tears would not come out. I feel so stupid, I expected to see him but he is already in a different place. A friend to me that his family went to china and left yesterday. He did not even bother to text me. I mean he even promised to see me at church today but when I arrived, he was not there! I only found out that he and his sister already went to china. At that time, I felt really sad because he did not even bother to just let me know about it. I feel so angry and sad but even when I feel that way, will he even come back to the country? No! He will not even go back or even let me know about it or even apologize! I dont even want to think about it but it seems that everywhere I would look, it would still remain. Or worse if I see anything related about him, I could feel the pain resurfacing!

This are what I would call the summer days. Well, for one it's really summer but this summer is BOILING HOT!!! The summer heat this year is SO unbearable! I would certainly have my bath after typing this post.

edit: I would certainly want to take a bath for more than an hour


I would also like to type in with this entry about what I would do this summertime. During Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays I would attend review classes in the morning and do nothing in the afternoon. Sometimes, I would go out with my friends and just go to the mall. Usually when I would go to the mall, I would actually see some of the church people.

Edit: Yesterday and today, I went to SM Sta mesa and I saw many of my friends or acquaintances at church. Weird huh?!

On Tuesdays and Thursdays, I would have all the free time I want! muwahahahaha but at those days, I would just spend my time in front of the tv, computer, and trying to do something productive which usually is unsuccessful. For example: I would try to finish a cross stich design but after a few crosses, I would gey lazy and sit in front of the tv or computer. I really need the discipline these days... sigh!

On Saturdays and Sundays, most of my time is devoted in church. I would normally be seen not in my house doing nothing but at church serving God. Also on Sundays the same thing goes. Then we go back to Monday.

I think that my summer life is once again becoming a cycle. Argh! To be completely honest, I hate cycles! I just hope the rest of my summer could not be a cycle one again. It only becomes boring!