darn I miss him, yet i know he doesnt anymore.. its too much already that its killing me.. :| *sigh* why is forgetting so hard? :(

and I am afraid of losing you. I kept on crying lately and I cant console myself because there is no one to comfort m, no one to tell me that everything is going to be okay. I kept on praying to ask for peace but I cant find it. I feel so hurt, so tired and I want someone to tell me that you will not make that decision.

as the title has said, i am too upset right now. many things has been happening and i dont think i can bear the ostracism anymore. its indirect but you can feel how much it hurts and the worst part is that i cant do anything because its as if everyone has decided. :( i just dont know what to do... i wanna scream i wanna cry i want to resolve this but people acts as if there is no need to resolve the issue. why wont people do that? is it because pride dictates them to do so? i dont want this i dont want this..