Tuesday and Wednesday, the rains have come and poured and yet, I am amazed to see the resilience of my fellow countrymen. I see that no matter how life gets tough, the people do not simply give up. In my end, I do want to help out because I know that I have been blessed but there are still people in need and for me, it is one of those opportunities to serve other people. In serving others I find that there is a joy, not just any kind of joy but the joy which will remind you time and the effort you gave out to help these people will be worth the hardships.

It's a terrifying experience to see the area where you live in become flooded with rain water. I guess what is more scary is that you know for a fact that it never floods in your area. Once you see the waters starting to rise, one may realize the seriousness of the situation. The possibility of the waters going in your home is terrifying but how much more when the water goes up to the second floor. Now that is more scary. After the thyphoon Ondoy, we did not expect this kind of rain to happen ever again. But no, this is the second time this has happened and yet, it is a storm without a name. That is terrifying.

For me, I see that there are so many windows of opportunity and yet I feel so powerless as to help because of my duties at work. I know work must not be an excuse to help others but I must make use of my time productively, maybe on the weekend I might get opportunites to serve others.

Anyway, work will start soon. I do hope for a productive and a positive day ahead for everyone out there. For my fellow Filipinos, keep safe and dry.

Ciao,
Cia~

Hello! It's really been a while. I really don't know if some people read this blog but who cares? I want to start blogging again.

Well, anyway, yes it has been quite a while and now, well.. I'm no longer a student but I'm a working girl. Some of my friends even resort to call me as "Makati Girl." Anyway, I currently work as a Temp for HR. Not really the best kind of job (since I have no benefits and all), but hey at least I'm learning new stuff on a daily basis. I love the work I do because it is related to what I have studied for the last 4 years in college. I do hope and pray for a possible full time position in the future.

I think this is all I can blog for now. I'll try to get some inspiration somewhere..

Ciao,
Cia

*have a blessed year ahead! :) God bless :D

body image issues

When you felt so alone from your class. That everyone hates you? Yeah, that's what I feel right now. I mean okay there is a problem with me, I'm trying my best to fix that problem so that others wont be affected by that problem.

But no. Instead people decide to butt in with my business and does something drastic and now I'm very much afraid of what lies ahead. I mean okay, it does look distracting and all but they could have been frank with it. I mean really now,you can just say it straight in my face "STOP IT, IT'S DISTRACTING!" I mean I listen to comments and criticisms calmly and I take it in. But instead someone had the guts to do something else.

And now I'm upset. Very very upset. I tried to sleep over it last night but no. I cant sleep well and I'm very much frustrated. I just wish P3 was more considerate. I don't want this to happen in the first place. what's done is done. We are only capable of doing damage control and other measures and that's what we plan to do. I will come out stronger after this... no, not I- WE will come out stronger after this. Strong enough that no one can say anything against us again. for too long I have been considerate and quiet, I don't involve everyone with my problems and all, only my close friends. But those people have gone too far. Too far to be exact. From first year til now, I endured every teasing every rumor in silence because I don't want to be affected by what these people are saying. But it is simply too much... thank you for ruining my day...

and I'm BORED =|

haha since very few people read this blog (and i love the people who do), here's what's been happening lately :3

I. Exam update
Exams are finally over! Yipee! :D Finally i can say goodbye to the sleepless nights for now, and say hello to a 3 week vacation! <3 The exams though wasn't that easy. o.o Here is a short summary of the exams i took:

Monday: Philippine Literatures and Experimental Psychology Lec
Phil Lit- I guess i don't need to say much on Phil Lit. It wasn't that hard, it's a bit confusing but I know for sure that i'll pass on that subject. I'll definitely miss Sir Pads' discussions even though it can be pretty much boring at times.
Expe Lec- In expe lec on the other hand, the exam was not that easy. I guess it's because Sir B wasn't the one who made the exam, and the prof who made the exam.. well I haven't encountered her yet, so yeaaa.. the exam was kinda confusing o.o

Tuesday: Abnormal Psychology and Industrial-Organizational Psychology
-I still don't understand why these two subjects have to be taken in one day =| I mean come on... from Anxiety Disorders to Schizophrenia D: and then like 5 chapters of IO D:
Ab Psych- yeaa... it's one of my fave subjects during this sem.. studying about mental disorders was fun~ :P but the amount of material to study.. D: dooom! =| well the exam was not that easy but i'm pretty much confident that i can pass the subject :3
IO psych- well i started studying for this subject first compared to Ab psych because well i haven't studied IO that much.. but the exam was okay i guess...

Wednesday: Current Issues in Psychology
- well studying 6 articles is easy, but understanding them is a different story.. and over analyzing can give you a headache O.O the exams are a bit confusing and I'm a bit uncertain if I can pass the subject.. I hope I can pass the subject.. *crosses fingers*

Thursday: Psychodiagnostics Lec and Lab
Diag Lec- yeaa.. I'm scared for this subject as well. it could have been fun but the prof... D: I often worried about this subject o.o I really don't wanna fail this subject... I really studied hard for it o.o The exam was easier or I really did my best :3 haha all the best for diag lec
Diag Lab- LABO! =| ever so malabo =| *crosses fingers* prays to pass

so yeaa that's about it. Grades will be released this friday :-s and I'm scared o.o very much scared o.o

II. Sembreak :3
Almost halfway through the first week of my break and I guess i have been "productive." Since it's my break, it's usually spent in front of the TV and computer games. O.O Luckily, i often go out so there seems to be a balance between the things I'm doing right now.. :)) There are challenges on facebook which are really funny and interesting at the same time. Then yea.. I have been watching some movies some of my friends recommended; unfortunately since I'm a bit of a movie bipolar, i tend to watch until the middle then i would stop watching the movie and do something else.

oh well i'll stop for now :3 borreeeddd D:

1.The cellphone rings, who do you want it to be?
- anyone important i guess :3
2 . When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart?
- sometimes
3. If you had to kiss again the last person you kissed, would you?
- hmm.. maybe?
4. Do you take compliments well?
- you could say that
5. Do you play Sudoku
- yea... pretty good at it too :P
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive?
- well yeaa... that’s where scouting skills are put to the test XD
7. If your house were on fire, what would be the first thing you would save?
- my family and legal papers
8. Who was the last person you slept in the bed with?
- shobe :3
9. Who do you text the most?
- Ruthiiieee!!
10. Favorite children's book?
- Sweet Valley Series XD
11 . Eye color?
- dark brown sometimes i wear green contacts :P
12. How tall are you?
- around 5”2 i think... o.o
13. If you could do it over again, start from scratch, would you?
- do what over again?
1 4. Any secret admirers?
- naah... i dont think so... D:
15. When was the last time you were at Olive Garden?
- where dat? :P
16. Favorite ex..?
- never had a boyfrienddd... O.O *forever alonnnee T___T*
17. Where was the furthest place you traveled?
- Singapore <3
1 8. Do you like mustard?
- mmm... mustaarrrdd XD
19. Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
-SLEEEP <3 
21. Do you miss anyone
- yeaa... o.o
22. Can you do splits?
- maybe with a little practice i can XD
23. What movie do you want to see right now?
- The Social Network
24 . What did you do for New Year's Eve?
- Eat. Laugh. Pray. 
25. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?
- havent watched it O____O
27. Was your mom a cheerleader?
- nope
28. Whats the last letter of your middle name?
- O
30 . How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
- depends usually i get 6-8 hours of sleep, but if i have to pull an all nighter i usually end up not getting any sleep at all 
31 . Do you like care bears?
- dont like them at all
32 . What do you buy at the Movies?
- popcorn and soda XD
33. Do you know how to play poker?
- i wanna learn :P
34. Do you wear your seatbelt?
- yes. Esp when i drive :3
35. What do you wear to sleep?
- shirt/tank top, short/ jogging pants
36. Anything big ever happen in your CITY?
- campagin period for Barangay elections... BORING =))
37. Is your hair straight or curly?
- straight :P
38. Is your tongue pierced?
- nooo... o.o
39. Do you like Liver and Onions?
- not fond of them =|
40. Do you like funny or serious people better?
- a combination of both :3
41. Ever been to L.A.?
- soon i guess XD
42. What is on your mind right now?
- tumblr, blogger, facebook, productivity rates =))
43.A ny plans 4 tonight?
- chat with friends until 2am, and sleep :P
44 . Whats your fav. song at the moment?
- So Close
4 5. Do you hate chocolate?
- i love chocolate XD
46 . What do you and your parents fight about the most?
- we dont fight. We only argue about my lack of sleep
47. Are you a gullible person?
- not really 
48. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
- no. I choose to be happy on a daily basis
49. If you could have any job what would it be?
- a Clinical Psychologust/ photographer/ pastry chef :3
50 . Are you easy to get along with?
- well yea, unless you dont like me ;)
51. What is your favorite time of day?
- night time :P
52 . Are you generally a happy person?
- yea i guess so 