and in all honesty i am not in the mood to actually blog right now. but for the sake of writing i will. well a lot has been happening lately and i sometimes i end up surprised that so many things have happened in a short span of time. maybe that is how things are, its too fast paced. maybe God is telling me something. I just have to find out what it is.

weeiiirrrddd!!! Usually by now, i would have written or ranted about something! D:

Oh well here I am what should I talk about?

With all the crazy things that are happening in our lives in regards to chemistry, I wasnt so sure when our schedule will be okay once again. Fortunately, last saturday, I finally got a text from the class president that we finally have the class schedule...

Mondays and Fridays, we say goodbye to 2 hour breaks as 1pm-2pm is taken by chem...
Wednesdays- UGH! 5pm-6pm!!! *DARN IT!

Click the pic to understand better.... o.o


There! I revised my class schedule just for chem... o.o

Theeennn for today, i pretty much studied the whole morning! O____O 3 subjects down, two more to go then I can relax for the rest of the day :)) Here is my things to do...



yeah the manhid part is about him :))

Change is inevitable but change is a really good thing, but it can also be a very bad thing. It can make me a better or a worse person.

Yet I dont want the kind of change that makes me a worse person. I know change is not easy especially for someone like me, but I know that change will help me become a better person in reality. =)

by Chris Taylor

*thanks to maidens of worth for sharing :)
http://maidensofworth.org/

I'm in the mood for a breakdown
A slowing down of all the things on my mind
That keep on trying to figure out how to pin You down

In desperate need of a shakedown
A blowing down of all the ways that I try
To talk You into a corner until You look like me

But when I finally see what You see
There's a symphony
I hear a symphony

Words cannot define
What it means to be
In Your symphony
In Your symphony

A long awaited let down
A burning through that's calling me back to You
With a beautiful melody of all You love

It's welling deep inside of me
It's springing out, the song that I'm meant to sing
So teach me the harmony to all You love

Hearts in unison
I'm drawn into Your love
Hearts in unison
I understand Your love

The question has been nagging me for some time now. But what exactly do I want to delete? To be really honest, my dear reader whoever you are, I want to delete my facebook account. You may ask why I want to do such an act. The answer is really simple, I want to start a new life. I dont want to remember all the pains I have felt brought by the social networking site. In such a site, all my heart's unreasonable desires are coming right at me- its plain mockery for me, and mockery is pure insult. :| I dont want to use the social networking site anymore because of such reasons. Knowing that this only means running away from my problems that are only fleeting as what the bible says but for me these problems stretch out throughout the lifetime. Deep down, i know this means cutting myself from other people, by the people whom I have met and have shared my time with.

I often ask myself the deep questions recently. I know it distracts me from school and all but I know I have to finish this once and for all even if it entails me to start a new. I may have to delete my first fb account, make a more private one and even with yahoo messenger, because there are people whom I really don't talk at all, its purely ridiculous to keep the contact and not even chat at all. :| I know its being selfish but then how can I be a better person if I just cant let go of the past. I ask questions that make me cry more and more and more. I dont blame him for making myself fall in love with him. If i still force my emotions, I know I will be more prone to emotional problems.

This is actually my last blog post before I say goodbye to my laptop. It may not be a big thing to many people, but for me, it means saying goodbye to all the things I held on to. All the memories, all the sweet precious memories will be gone. So I guess its goodbye once and for all.

a shocking day i must say. a day where new things can happen, and the unusual happened to us!

WALA NA SI CHEM LEC PROF!!!D: He dropped our subject! :(( Its a waste!even though he already humiliated me once, I can say I'm gonna miss him. especially the before class anxiety panic attacks I get. It keeps my thoughts away from the unnecessary things in life!

Now we face a new dilemma. who is our new chem prof? what will our schedule be? will we still be sane after this?! wheee more questions lesser answers. typical... :|