Awww man! It's already the last day of summer and I'm not that excited to go back to school! Anyways, its been a while since I last blogged. Yes I blogged a lot this month since days are dull. This is my last day of bumming! =(

But no, I didnt bum today like I normally do for the past couple of days. Ever since yesterday, I was hooked on a game called Plants vs. Zombies. Darn it! Why do i easily get hooked on this game?! I had to defend my house from zombies who wish to eat my brain. HAHA! =) Yeah so, I pretty much ignored Restaurant city for that. HAHA! =) Well i guess it's time to finally retire from RC and start the school year RC-unaffected.

Also, for the past couple of weeks, my left eye is giving me some problems so, we decided to go to Achi Julie's clinic for check-up. Even though it was far, super fun time there haha i wasnt bored. :)) Also, shobe had her eyes checked at first which shows a higher astigmatism rather than me. My eyes were also checked only to find out that my left eye has a grade which affects my study time and my computer time. Well I guess it came from the late nights of sleep and paperworks during second sem. Well that's a thomasian. So for short, i wearing glasses. Yes I have to wear then whether I like it or not.

This is what my glasses look like:




I leave it to you guys to guess what I look like with the glasses... HAHA!! =)

darn it i wanna play ultimate frisbee today! T_T

click to zoom! =))

to let go...

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sorry readers for being not in the mood. there are even times when I tell myself not to even bother with this but since there is the possibility that some would still continue to read this. well, i thank you people. well being sad must be something with 2nd year coming and not yet wanting for summer to end. I dunno.

well I guess the reason lies in the concept of the heart. yeah its the heart once again. no matter how hard i try to push thoughts of him away, it always kept on coming back. I just hope school can erase a bit of the pain i have right now.

by Within Tempation

If I tell you
Will you listen?
Will you stay?
Will you be here forever?
Never go away?
Never thought things would change, hold me tight
Please don't say again that you have to go

A bitter thought
I had it all
But I just let it go
Hold your silence
It's so violence since you're gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
'Till the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you

If I had told you
You would've listened
You had stayed
You would be here forever
Never went away

It would never have been all the same
All our time what have been in vain
Cause you had to go

The sweetest thought
Had it all
Cause I did let you go
All our moments keep me warm
When you're gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
'Till the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you

I don't feel like myself today. Argh! I knew I shouldn't have slept yesterday during the afternoon. Now I feel all groggy and tired and haggard! And stressed! I couldn't get a wink of sleep last night, I always end up waking up from some nightmare that I don't remember. I don't think I even reached stage 3 of sleep. I always seem to wake up every 2 hours and then I would sit up and then wait and ponder, and then I would lie down and try to close my eyes but then my brain would start projecting images of horrifying things that I cant seem to recall. Then I would attempt to soothe myself but then nothing still seems to have worked. Darn it! I would definitely not sleep late this afternoon. Its only a pain in the ass if I do that.

Anyway so instead of waking up super late today, my biological clock woke me up at around 8am. 4 hours after waking up at around 4am. Darn it! My brother was still sleeping like a log when I woke up and he did not have any trouble sleeping unlike me! That is so unfair!

So leaving that part behind, after taking a shower, my mom told me to go downstairs to see a nice surprise. My Aunt dropped by and she gave me a dress that my cousins picked for me.:) Awwww that's so sweet! *hugs to my cousins! :)and she also returned the magazines that I lent for my cousin who is going to celebrate her 18th on September. :) Whew! All us girls in Mom's side are having debuts whether we like it or not. Ugh! Oh well, I have to obediently follow the traditions.

I'll be back later! :) Tata! :P

I cannot believe that its almost 4pm. And worse, I cannot believe that I slept from 1pm-3pm! Darn it! First of all I dont wanna sleep in the afternoon no matter how lazy/ bummed I get! It causes me bigger problems in my daily routine!

There is one big problem which bring other sub problems with it: INSOMNIA! If I sleep in the afternoon, I find it hard to sleep at night. Period.

The sub problem that goes with it is: since I cannot bring myself to sleep easily tonight, what must I do? It's called boredom at night. I dunno what to do tonight since my sister is sick and still cant sleep in my room (cross out the late night talks). I also find reading too boring at those times (reading psych books just to finish a report at 2am is a major head ache) even if those are not psych books! Running the computer on a late basis isn't good for it especially since it has recently undergone defraging, and obviously, not everyone I chat with stays during late hours.

Oh darn it what am I supposed to do now?

Yeah like the title says, I'm using someone else's computer as of this moment. Well, I cant do anything since my laptop is defraging. I dunno what defrag means, maybe something to do with fragments. Ack! I dunno. But then like the usual me would say OH WELL! :) At least some of the emotional drain is gone. But i do feel a bit bad discouraging a friend of mine to take the same course as I am taking right now. *I should be encouraging my younger brothers and sisters in Christ but I discouraged them. ducks from flying tomatoes from the invisible audience

Well maybe its the after effect of being emotionally drained. Ugh! Oh well since I'm not that emotional anymore, I guess its on to lighter/ simpler things for now. :) despite the internet mysteriously missing from time to time, i had a short nap which were interrupted by a series of texts from Ruth. Haha! oh well she's the shobe I'm spoiling them. I tried to answer her questions as easily as possible haha she does text hard hitting questions, and I love her to bits for that. :)

My dad made me install a new program which is about cleaning the drive from all the excess unnecessary things. I did try the program on my laptop and woah, off goes 300+ mb of space in my laptop. Hopefully with that my laptop will function faster, and since defraging is going on I hope the laptop really functions to its full potential like it used to be. HAHA! =) tralalala! :)

Darn it the big day is less than 2 months. Luckily, my mom intervened and asked an old friend to help me with something I am super scared about. Its the ROSES!!! I'd better get started with this or else I could faint on the workload on this. Something tells me that July 26 will really be an interesting night.

*yawn! I shouldn't have slept a while ago! I would most probably turn into an insomniac tonight! Since Shobe is sick, she cant sleep in my room which leaves me to sleep all alone tonight. Darn it I'll be awake the whole night. If only I hadnt slept a while ago. Thank you Ruth for waking me up. :)

I'll try to blog back later. HAHA!! =)