With all the crazy things that are happening in our lives in regards to chemistry, I wasnt so sure when our schedule will be okay once again. Fortunately, last saturday, I finally got a text from the class president that we finally have the class schedule...

Mondays and Fridays, we say goodbye to 2 hour breaks as 1pm-2pm is taken by chem...
Wednesdays- UGH! 5pm-6pm!!! *DARN IT!

Click the pic to understand better.... o.o


There! I revised my class schedule just for chem... o.o

Theeennn for today, i pretty much studied the whole morning! O____O 3 subjects down, two more to go then I can relax for the rest of the day :)) Here is my things to do...



yeah the manhid part is about him :))

Change is inevitable but change is a really good thing, but it can also be a very bad thing. It can make me a better or a worse person.

Yet I dont want the kind of change that makes me a worse person. I know change is not easy especially for someone like me, but I know that change will help me become a better person in reality. =)

by Chris Taylor

*thanks to maidens of worth for sharing :)
http://maidensofworth.org/

I'm in the mood for a breakdown
A slowing down of all the things on my mind
That keep on trying to figure out how to pin You down

In desperate need of a shakedown
A blowing down of all the ways that I try
To talk You into a corner until You look like me

But when I finally see what You see
There's a symphony
I hear a symphony

Words cannot define
What it means to be
In Your symphony
In Your symphony

A long awaited let down
A burning through that's calling me back to You
With a beautiful melody of all You love

It's welling deep inside of me
It's springing out, the song that I'm meant to sing
So teach me the harmony to all You love

Hearts in unison
I'm drawn into Your love
Hearts in unison
I understand Your love

The question has been nagging me for some time now. But what exactly do I want to delete? To be really honest, my dear reader whoever you are, I want to delete my facebook account. You may ask why I want to do such an act. The answer is really simple, I want to start a new life. I dont want to remember all the pains I have felt brought by the social networking site. In such a site, all my heart's unreasonable desires are coming right at me- its plain mockery for me, and mockery is pure insult. :| I dont want to use the social networking site anymore because of such reasons. Knowing that this only means running away from my problems that are only fleeting as what the bible says but for me these problems stretch out throughout the lifetime. Deep down, i know this means cutting myself from other people, by the people whom I have met and have shared my time with.

I often ask myself the deep questions recently. I know it distracts me from school and all but I know I have to finish this once and for all even if it entails me to start a new. I may have to delete my first fb account, make a more private one and even with yahoo messenger, because there are people whom I really don't talk at all, its purely ridiculous to keep the contact and not even chat at all. :| I know its being selfish but then how can I be a better person if I just cant let go of the past. I ask questions that make me cry more and more and more. I dont blame him for making myself fall in love with him. If i still force my emotions, I know I will be more prone to emotional problems.

This is actually my last blog post before I say goodbye to my laptop. It may not be a big thing to many people, but for me, it means saying goodbye to all the things I held on to. All the memories, all the sweet precious memories will be gone. So I guess its goodbye once and for all.

a shocking day i must say. a day where new things can happen, and the unusual happened to us!

WALA NA SI CHEM LEC PROF!!!D: He dropped our subject! :(( Its a waste!even though he already humiliated me once, I can say I'm gonna miss him. especially the before class anxiety panic attacks I get. It keeps my thoughts away from the unnecessary things in life!

Now we face a new dilemma. who is our new chem prof? what will our schedule be? will we still be sane after this?! wheee more questions lesser answers. typical... :|

My second day of the second semester. It's easy to simplify my thoughts this time because the idea of a terror professor has finally sunk in, and I can't choose my professors *BOO!! :(. Okay so Thursday a first day, new professors to meet, new irregular classmates, and long in between breaks.

7am Psychometrics Lab
Psychometrics Lec yesterday has still left a teeny weeny spark of fear in us. A while ago, it gave us a sense of anxiety on whom our professor(s) will be. So we waited and waited and waited until Sister came in. Which made us all heave a sigh of relief, and while she was discussing some of our requirements in class, in goes another prof who is actually her co-professor. It was okay for us because he sometimes proctored our class and he's a cool guy. He's the kind of the father figure, and sister is well the sister figure :)) Since it was only the first day- we got dismissed early which turned our 1 and a half hour break into a 3 hour one.

Break
as usual, I have with me my crochet things, which took a lot of my time during the break. It was also a productive break since me and my classmates had a "panel discussion" which focused on the different topics such as endtimes, back masking, and even politics. LOL!

Organic and Biochemistry Lec is equal to HELL!
Self explanatory

World Lit
a very interesting subject *since I like to read myself* but maybe its the prof's antics that is very interesting :)) I dunno which is funnier. I like her very much except when she said that we will do role plays and stuff. D: and make us even dance!

Okay so with those three subjects I need money to buy the book for chem and for world lit... psychometrics lab will use the same book we use in lec. And i need my books asap so that I can attend their classes. D:

Profs section:
Not mentioning any names. :P But anyway, I guess we have the right balance of terror and lovely professors. 2 terrors: 7 non-terrors :)) more non-terrors yehey! but then the two terrors are overwhelming D: I dont LIKE! D: I think both of them are insane! seriously! D:

Oh well, I just hope the semester turns out well, on the bright side, tomorrow we will only have social psych and mass then I can buy all the books I need and go home... :) okay I think I'll stop here for now, I still have to study social psych.

Ciao! :)

Second Sem, how do I describe my first day of the second semester? :| I really don't know how to express how I felt as the new semester came up. :| My heart has been too tired but my brain no longer wishes to hear what my heart has to say. Yeah my emotions are going through a series of roller coaster rides for a long time already.

Anyhow....

Okay so I will be sharing how this first day went, and since it will be another first day tomorrow- I dont have anything to DO at all well except for read Social Psych which I completely ADORE! <3

First subject- Organic BioChemistry
Yeah you read that right- ORGANIC BIOCHEMISTRY!!! And the same place for the lab(oh no... *flashbacks) So technically, while waiting for whom our professors will be, everyone in class (well almost everyone except for some) are screaming on top of their lungs on how long they haven't seen each other. :| It was weird at first but then I know that is how they rock and roll (and I <3 P3 to bits for that). And MY INORG CHEM LAB PROF (the guy) entered with a DIFFERENT Partner (*whew!). So after discussing on a teeny weeny bit of what we are to expect in ORGANIC BIOCHEMISTRY, he said that we are unlucky *especially the aspiring med students(which includes me! NOOO!!!!) because the two complicated subjects are merged into ONE BIG COMPLICATED SUBJECT. Great. :| It was 45 mins later when he dismissed us. Okay now for a 2 hour and 15 min break before the next class which is social psych

Break- PART 1
This break actually doesn't exist. but when the classes are suspended early, we get a big break. Luckily, i was learning how to crochet a scarf which gave me something to do within the break. :))

SOCIAL PSYCH is <3
Social Psych! :D I am so happy because our prof here is our FAVE PSYCH Prof. Even if we did have a few bumps with her during first year but now we are great friends. :) And we also got our first book! Which is expensive T_______________T (read:$$$$$$$$)

BMA LAB
a 2 hour lab which was finished in less than an hour :( which means hello to another LOOONNNGGG BREAK! :/ I dunno if I really like long breaks or not :|

Break- PART 2
This time, I went to the lib not to sleep but to crochet! I know I had seemingly gotten myself hooked to it. And I dont have anything to do at all! D: So almost 3 hours of break was spent crocheting and sleeping. *I did sleep in the Payungan area :))

BMA LEC!
another FAST subject since we have the same prof. Then after the attendance he left us and a bunch of seniors asked us to help answer a survey for their thesis... :| Then in the middle of the test, our prof for Psychometrics came and was a bit upset because he wasnt informed. Technically, they informed the wrong prof.

PSYCHOMETRICS
Last subject. Everyone of us was tense because it was our first time to encounter this prof. I'm not mentioning any names, but he was very strict. I guess I can live with it, since I already encountered worse professors. *woops:))

Oh well, I'll stop for now :)) Tata! :)